I'm officially graduated from San Francisco State. Feels weird, not that good. I'm overly anxious about what I'm going to do next. I still work at the coffee shop, but I can't stay there for longer than a couple more months. My sanity is suffering as it is.
I'm in Antioch right now dog sitting for my parents, which is a job slightly more difficult than I originally expected. The dog can't not follow me and lick me every waking moment and bridging into the sleeping ones too. I'm also alone, for the most part, unless I go visit an old friend or stop by Heather's house for a short talk. It's an odd transitional phase for me, although I can't put my finger on why I feel so jarred by it. Finishing school, being super scared about what I'm going to do and where I'm going to go, sitting alone in a house I grew up in, not doing anything really productive but not wasting time either. I'm not bored but I'm not excited about anything. It's the middle all the way.
I don't know what will happen with jobs, I don't know about more school, where I'll live. I don't even know about Drew anymore.
I'm too tired to think about all this right now.
5 comments:
Why do you only get to work at the coffee shop for a few more months? Everyone has angst about the unknown; sometimes you just have to take a leap of faith and move forward.
Congrats on graduating. Sorry that we missed out on your party. The unknown will all ways be scary.
You will do great. And I know your sister is happy to have you close by for a while.
Congratulations.
I'm serious, maybe you should think about getting a phd in south American folk dance! You would get to go by Doctor Meghan Kane! The more I think about it, I kinda think it's neat that someone got a doctorate in dance! Then you can be a judge on sytycd and take Adam shankman's place.
Don't worry about Drew. Everyone goes through it. The what if's. But I can understand not wanting to just be stagnant.
Congrats Meghan!! I know it was a long road so great job on sticking it out!
If you need a change of scenery or two wild kids jumping all over you, you are welcome to come and stay with us anytime!
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