Monday, November 24, 2008

Less money, mo' problems.

Why does cash have to rule everything around me? With the latest nose dive of the economy, my lowly barista job has suffered greatly. Unfortunately. Surprisingly. Sadly. 

Rent is harder to make, my clothes are in the worst shape ever, and I haven't cut my hair in a year. On the plus side, it looks kinda cute long. Barf. Anyway. 
I haven't been doing much. I don't really have the most accessible internet around, so when I get a chance to update I race to do so. I'm at my friend Tessa's house right now, hoarding her Mac. 

Here's a problem for my disgustingly girly psyche to chew around for a couple minutes. Why don't boys call me? I gave my number to a certain coffee shop babe a couple days ago, apparently wrongly noting his interactions with me as flirting? Still nothing. I don't get it. Do I have some inflated ego? An ego that just doesn't understand how he could pass this up, I mean what is he thinking, I. Am. So. Pretty kind of ego? Really? Am I that girl?
I don't like to think so, and the familiar feeling of rejection is keeping me from reminding myself that there is a possibility I could actually, legitimately be that girl. 
Another one bites the dust, I suppose. 
So just like my monetary plunge comes a more inner, more meaningful one takes a nasty turn downwards as well. 21 years and no takers. Any? No? Alright. Next item.

That's all. I need to scrounge up something to eat. 




2 comments:

Heather said...

meghan, how you wrote makes me laugh. you should write a book. like that one idiot girls guide to something (i can't remember what it was a guide for). if that boy doesn't call you 3 days after you gave him your number, forget him. and when he comes into the store, throw hot coffee on his face. and laugh.

Kristi said...

I remember getting up my courage to give my number to a guy in one of my classes in college. We had talked and flirted and I finally gave him my number. It was the first and last time!! He never called. Just remember: men are idiots!!! But someday you'll find just the idiot for you!!! Just like I found your idiot uncle who I dearly love. Hang in there and NO, you are not that girl! You are smart and beautiful and funny and someday, some idiot will realize that!